My First Experience with a High Fashion Modeling Agency in NYC

First of all, people don’t know what I’ve done or what I’ve tried in life and yet, they are always imposing on me what I “should be” and “should do.”

I am doing what I want to be doing. I am happy in who I am. 

I’m here for myself, not you

In 2017, I tried out modeling. I was with a fashion agency made up of 10-15 individuals who all had my email address, phone number and personal information and were harassing me with texts about doing free photoshoots, for the majority of the time. And “since I was staying at their housing,” they were entitled to all of my earnings from the projects I “booked” through their agency.

I would contact them with questions and concerns but they detoured a lot of issues and told me “this is how the industry works.” Lmao, basically, I’m suppose to play dumb, knowing that the cost of the agency’s accommodations were higher than the cost of the shit they booked me for, making it impossible for me to make any money of my own.

After many emails and in person discussions about my career, they stopped representing me. They told me I had to leave the apartment “by tomorrow,” knowing I had nowhere else to go.

I didn’t make an announcement on social media. I didn’t bash the company. I was just annoyed that they always told me to talk to them and open up to them but, as soon as they were forced to answer to me, there was drama.

The agency never paid me for my time, money and/or image. The agents would complain that my book was weak when they were the ones telling me to do all these tacky photoshoots. I would spend money on public transportation to get to all the places they wanted me to go. They would say things like “Every model has to go through this.”

I disagreed so hard...

We live in the real world. I’m not about to “be nice” or settle for words of encouragement and the things I have to endure to “make it.” People are crazy and people are very stupid. And at the end of the day, I’m busy doing me.

Fuck your agency

Moving forward, I started negotiating my own rate and standards for what work should be. I’m learning about finances, saving and money management. I am a mini businesswoman. I keep a baseline of income and I continue doing business with respectable photographers, designers, makeup artists and brands that provide realistic opportunities and income for me. 

For any body who wants to play me, take advantage of me or betray me:

Peace out.

— Talia

What’s In My Skincare Bag

Do a little scavenging in the skincare section at any local Burlington’s, TJ-Maxx or Marshall’s and learn a lot about all the amazingly cheap products on the market for various skin-types.

I always find all of my favorite serums and oils at department stores! And I also enjoy when I come across new products to try but, I really don’t stray too far from the main “ingredients” used to keep my face A1 (aside from water!)

I create my own step by step regime with a layer of zit treatment, anti-aging, toning and moisturizer every single day and night — what works for me may not work for everyone, though...

Good luck! Please feel free to post any questions/comments below in the “comments section!” 

— Talia

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For Aging and Wrinkle Prevention: Collagen, Rose

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For Inflammatory, Redness and “Zit” Treatment: Tea Tree Oil

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For Even Skin Tone and Brightening: Vitamin C

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For Natural White Teeth: Activated Charcoal Powder

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Tip: I use my powdered toothpaste with an oral b sensi-soft toothbrush for a good 60 seconds, twice a day. The only downside is charcoal is very messy and it takes a few rinses to get all the black out my mouth but the whitening is worth it.

For Thick Eye Brows and Eye Lashes: Castor Oil

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Tip: I dip a disposable eyelash brush (spoolie) into castor oil, comb a thin layer through eyelashes and eyebrows then use an eyelash curler for a natural lift. I noticed a major difference after 3-5 days.

Hot N Spicy

My skincare and makeup tips for this season!

On warmer days, I wear bb cream and lipgloss because I know I get fidgety in direct sunlight with full makeup on. Here, I’m using a lot of anti-aging skincare products with a light layer of foundation, concealer and contour. I did my brows, powdered my eyelids and t-zone, applied a (newly purchased) lip color and finished the look with a thin coat of mascara.

Tip: I do my mascara last (after I use setting spray) to avoid transferring it on my eyelids.

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Face: Maybelline Fit Me Foundation in Porcelain 110

Concealer: Maybelline Fit Me Concealer in Sand Sable 20

Eyes: Maybelline Shine Free Oil Control Loose Powder in Light 01

Lips: Ruby Kisses Creamlicious Triple Butter Matte Cream in Hot N’ Spicy

Highlight: Too Faced Glitter Bomb Prismatic Glitter Eyeshadow Palette in Rosé All Day

Lashes: Maybelline Lash Sensational Mascara in 01 Waterproof Very Black

Brows: NYX Eyebrow Cake Powder in Taupe

Tip: I use tea tree oil, rosehip oil and collagen moisturizer to prep my skin before makeup.

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bodysuit and accessories by Forever21, rain pants by Goodwill, shoes by Converse

For local (New York) or international (online) bookings, dm me on Instagram

— Talia

Bookings & Modeling

This year, I moved on to primarily beauty and daily opportunities that would cultivate money doing what I love and in New York City, the place I love. For the first time, I have consistency in my life and I appreciate the way things have fallen into place. I love the people surrounding me but, I rely on myself. And I really keep a low profile to stick to my own work. It’s quiet and peaceful yet I haven’t had to give up my shine or dim my own aspirations. Last night, someone I barely remember working with dm’d me about “a designer, doing a project, and needing a model” — this person cut me off as soon as the designer contacted me and I responded by asking if there was payment involved. I have no problem doing shoots so long as I am being compensated with money. I was up front with them! Anyway, when I was with an agency, I was brainwashed into working for free to “build my portfolio” and I felt like it was putting me 10 steps back from my goals because it costed more than I was making. I disagreed to the labor, the whole experience was short lived and I guess because I never announced that I decided to quit modeling, most people didn’t catch on to what I was doing or believed in. If you want to work with me, I have rates and business to do, period. (Lmao) Suffice to say, I’m shooting for Women’s Wear Daily on Saturday! Follow me on Twitter and keep up with my Instastory

— Talia

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Dolce

I’m not going to be here, doing this shit forever and it may not even be my calling. So, I don’t know who is really watching me or following me but, I keep hoping that it will finally be the right set of eyes willing to take my platform higher and it’s just not really working out like that. For some reason though, a brand new bitch can roll up, copy my shit and get verified like nobody’s business. Also, when I’m out, people tell me what I should be doing with my life like I haven’t tried or done it all. I’m happy with where I am and what I’m going through. I don’t know what to tell bitches because aren’t we all doing our own thing anyway?

— Talia

 These vegan churros are literally the best  thing to of happened to me since I buzzed my hair.

These vegan churros are literally the best  thing to of happened to me since I buzzed my hair.

 Always Sally Hansen!

Always Sally Hansen!

 Elle tried it. In the best way.

Elle tried it. In the best way.

 At David’s Bridal part II.

At David’s Bridal part II.

 Feminine, soft and girly.

Feminine, soft and girly.

 I love New York!

I love New York!

   facebook.com/nataliavoider  if you’re brave enough to follow me there.

 facebook.com/nataliavoider if you’re brave enough to follow me there.

 A Bugs Life.

A Bugs Life.

 The prettiest looking Walgreens is on Fulton Street and it’s because it’s a reconstructed bank. 

The prettiest looking Walgreens is on Fulton Street and it’s because it’s a reconstructed bank. 

9 Days of Glam & Beauty Food

I‘m sad that it’s already growing back so quick. I was with my friend and they were like “You can tell when hair is growing because it becomes darker” and I didn’t think of that. The idea is to buzz it every week as I’m enjoying my face more than I ever imagined and I think people are receiving me like I’ve always wanted them to. I’m actually modest as fuck in person. I’d rather be in the background and I’d rather not pay attention to anyone in the hopes they will ignore me... that’s never the case though, especially upon walking around like Mette (from N.E.R.D’s Lemon). Anyway, it’s St Patrick’s Day and I’m staying indoors, doing laundry and making sure I’m up-to-date on my entries. I’ve been totally influenced by the likes of a certain Earth “sign” who is helping me in all the ways I’ve truly needed. I’m surprised at the fact that I’m allowing myself to be shared as far as my time and presence goes. I’ve been extremely involved in work, the city and getting close to those who want to know me.  I’ve noticed that the more I stay, the more everything in my life prospers. 

— Talia

  Jajaja Plantas Mexicana    162 E Broadway, New York, NY 10002

Jajaja Plantas Mexicana

162 E Broadway, New York, NY 10002

 Seriously. I’m thankful to be here. I love this building and I can’t believe it’s my home.

Seriously. I’m thankful to be here. I love this building and I can’t believe it’s my home.

 This is truly happiness in a bowl and I hope everyone gets a chance in experiencing it. 

This is truly happiness in a bowl and I hope everyone gets a chance in experiencing it. 

 My favorite smoothie is the Almond Delight. I also love the S pice of Life  juice which I add a  Ginger Deluxe   Shot  to!

My favorite smoothie is the Almond Delight. I also love the Spice of Life juice which I add a Ginger Deluxe Shot to!

 Terri has the best cupcakes in NYC.  

Terri has the best cupcakes in NYC.  

 *ALL PICTURES ARE TAKEN BY ME*

Rose Bite

Face: Maybelline Fit Me Foundation in Classic Ivory 120 and concealer in Sand Sable 20 mixed with my favorite skincare oils and moisturizers

Eyes: Wet N Wild ColorIcon Blush in Mellow Wine matted out with Maybelline Shine Free Loose Powder in Light and L.A. Girl Ultimate Eye Intense Stay Auto Liner in Super Bright used on lower waterline

Lips: Revlon Colorstay Lip Liner in Sienna and Nicka K Vivid Matte Lipstick in Nude Brick

Cheeks: Ruby Kisses 3D Contour Artist Cream in Light/Medium and Wet N Wild ColorIcon Blush in Mellow Wine

Highlight: Palladio Crushed Metallic Shadow in Zenon

Lashes: Wet N Wild Mega Length Mascara

Brows: NYX Eyebrow Cake Powder in Taupe

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I really like a sun selfie when it’s done right, if that makes sense... clear and flawless skin that’s all about the highlight and probably good af editing. I still go for my monochromatic feel because warmer photos are kinda gross to me and being in the sun really gives away my true skin tone as oppose to my usual satisfaction in studio lighting. Like, I was reviewing my previous selfies and they are super filtered to the point of my looking pale. Lol, I don’t want that. So, I’m in a new building that provides a rooftop level where the sun comes directly through the window, happily keeping my beauty game on point. Not sure why I’ve noticed how scarce my social media engagement is but, I honestly don’t care to have the attention of those who are not going to share or add-to my work. I’ve been blogging for years. I see comments and I get asked tons of questions but, it’s just stupid. I only really value my friends and the brands who literally showcase me; David’s Bridal and Eats By Chloe hit me up this season along with likes (and comments) from a few verified users like Zac Posen, whom I love. It’s cool. I like the whole idea of being low-key and still acknowledged. I know it’ll work its way up to a more public setting where bigger opportunities will reach me but in the meantime, follow me on Twitter.

— Talia

Sugar & Frost

Ok, so like. It’s 12:55AM and I’m currently in bed (because where else would I be?) with a head wrap on. I’m also wearing a wrist splint because I have a pinched nerve and it’s so fucking hideous. Anyway, I don’t know if anyone else remembers the major bullshit I use to complain about but, aside from the snowstorm, I have been really busy with work. That’s it. I also moved to a new location in Brooklyn. It’s really pretty but, in my mind, it’s temporary because my plan is to have a flat in the city with my loved one! Like, I envision having a spacious place to call h o m e really soon. I have 10 more months of being single as I’ve vowed to myself and I’m anticipating the path I’m on  even though people try to sleep on how well I acclimate. I stay about me and my business so that I’m bettering myself for everything to come. In a strange way, my blog and my creative productivity is my armor because it keeps me out of trouble. Plus, I know I have readers from all over the world (as I post on my Twitter) and that makes me happy, too!

— Talia

 I did that glitter thing with the eyeshadow applicator. Eh?

I did that glitter thing with the eyeshadow applicator. Eh?

 Nicka K Pure Lip Oil Lipgloss

Nicka K Pure Lip Oil Lipgloss

 I know I did a YouTube video on some of the new products I’m using but it’s nothing like really breaking it all down. When I have time, I’ll do a full regime but day-to-day, I use cleansing wipes, toner and face masks because they’re quick and effective. In the morning, before I do my makeup, I’ll use a face mask. Sometimes I even mix my favorite moisturizer, oils or serums with my foundation and concealer so that I know I’m working skincare into my beauty looks. A girl asked me what I use on my face and I told her that I use lipgloss because I do. I love the natural sheeny highlight of a gloss whereas using a powder can sometimes look ashy and fake. I found these lip oils at one of my favorite beauty stores in the city and I use it everywhere... I love the coconut flavor!

I know I did a YouTube video on some of the new products I’m using but it’s nothing like really breaking it all down. When I have time, I’ll do a full regime but day-to-day, I use cleansing wipes, toner and face masks because they’re quick and effective. In the morning, before I do my makeup, I’ll use a face mask. Sometimes I even mix my favorite moisturizer, oils or serums with my foundation and concealer so that I know I’m working skincare into my beauty looks. A girl asked me what I use on my face and I told her that I use lipgloss because I do. I love the natural sheeny highlight of a gloss whereas using a powder can sometimes look ashy and fake. I found these lip oils at one of my favorite beauty stores in the city and I use it everywhere... I love the coconut flavor!

 Try using and drinking charcoal!

Try using and drinking charcoal!

 All I’ve got to say is: the Peace Food Café knows what’s up.

All I’ve got to say is: the Peace Food Café knows what’s up.

 I really do have fun on the job. I live in the moment, dressing up and trying new styles. It’s fun to learn about designers I never thought to take interest in until I started working with dresses. And no, all the mirrors don’t make me any crazier than I already am.

I really do have fun on the job. I live in the moment, dressing up and trying new styles. It’s fun to learn about designers I never thought to take interest in until I started working with dresses. And no, all the mirrors don’t make me any crazier than I already am.

Tease — Red Lip Beauty

I don’t know why it feels like wearing red lipstick pisses other girls off, lmao. These days, I am b u s y as hell with full weeks to look forward to in the city. I feel like I’m living the dream! I’m a working girl and I’m getting by with myself while staying productive and creative. Like, I’m okay. And I really do wish the best for everyone. I hope we all fulfill our deepest desires but, most importantly receive and exert clarity about it. I kinda had a cry fest last night to get all of my nerves calm. I was in the bathroom, listening to music and thinking to myself “How many times am I going to cry by myself in the bathroom.” Whatever it is, it’s not worth it. So, I started dancing it all off and laughing at myself because as much as I complain, I still enjoy every bit of life. 

— Talia

 Found this purse at Burlingtons.  

Found this purse at Burlingtons.  

 I love the song “All The Stars” by Kendrick Lamar and SZA. I

I love the song “All The Stars” by Kendrick Lamar and SZA. I

 And, baby, I hope you’re happy. 

And, baby, I hope you’re happy. 

 What if I were a mess. 

What if I were a mess. 

 I like Sally Hansen nail polish.

I like Sally Hansen nail polish.

 Take me to bed. 

Take me to bed. 

 Haunting you.  

Haunting you.  

 Sometimes I watch really intense celebrity interviews to get back in touch with myself.  

Sometimes I watch really intense celebrity interviews to get back in touch with myself.  

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Face: Maybelline Fit Me Foundation and Concealer

Eyes: Covergirl TruBlend Bronzer in Bronze, NYX Slim Eye Pencil in Green Glitter

Lips: Ruby Kisses Forever Matte Liquid Lipstick in Wild Fire

Cheeks: Ruby Kisses All Over Glow, Elf Cosmetics Aqua Beauty Blush & Bronzer in Bronzed Pink Beige

Highlight: Jesse’s Girl Pure Pigment Eye Dust in Pixie Dust

Lashes: Wet N Wild Mega Length Mascara

Brows: NYX Eyebrow Cake Powder in Taupe

Blossom

I’m so ready to get a brain transplant that removes people from my long term memory because at this point, it only makes sense. I’ve been doing so well and on my own, I hope nobody is too worried. I’m just becoming more and more like me with no outside influence and control. I do not miss reporting to people about everything I do, even what I’m eating or what my latest skincare is. Like, I talk about all that online, anyway. In a nutshell, it’s all the same but better. I had lunch with my best friend today and even that set me in a different tone. I love her and miss her but, I’m so disconnected and it’s hard to be myself around people who use to know me. I think I kinda understand why men run away or hide. I get it. The need to reinvent oneself. Though there’s a difference in running and just being okay with yourself and where you’re at. That’s what I am. I know that if I see people from my past, I’d have the strength to handle it all with grace. I know this because today was that day. I’m just so random, though. Also, I hate wearing bras like, oh my god. I’ve not worn a bra since? Ugh. The only exception I’ll make is for a lace or fabric bralette; nothing with unnecessary padding and wire. Funny enough, my day attire is fucking tacky. I really think I’m watching too much Friends.

— Talia

Top by Green Layers SportsJacket by H&MPants by NikeShoes by J. Adams

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F/W 18

I just realized, ok. So, not everyone is on Twitter. W h a t e v e r. It’s a community though so, even if people I know or want aren’t on there, it’s still fun and I still use it. But, ugh - why do I automatically assume that I even have an audience to command? My set is dry. My phone is dry. My lips are so dry from all the ginger I just ate. As soon as I’m done writing this, I’m going to drink water and probably watch Friends on Netflix. It’s getting good. Like, it’s getting to a place I can relate to again; I think it’s when Joey and Rachel start a relationship? I don’t know but, I’m excited. I just saw a spoiler on YouTube and now it’s all I’m anticipating... Speaking of Friends... I can’t help but think about living in the heart of Manhattan as I did for a couple of weeks last September. It was amazing. I was right off Union Square and I met a whole bunch of amazing people in which I don’t even speak to now but, the memories are pleasant to think about. I was actually reviewing my Snapchat and wtf my life has been like these several months yo, I’m proud to see that the majority is full of laughter and 100% joy. Almost too much fun, I deleted a few videos just incase my phone is ever hacked. Some things are better left in my head! Except for my blog. I’m good on having one end of my shit together. The other end can be depicted through a series of my tweets and instastories (@taliavoider). Even if you’re not on some apps, all of my social media is public!

— Talia

 

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Follow me on Twitter! 

A Purple Look

Face: Maybelline Fit Me Foundation and Concealer

Eyes: NYX Professional Eye Pencil in Purple Blaze and Ace Beaute Quintessential Eyeshadow Palette in Burgamot

Lips: Revlon ColorStay Lipliner in Sienna

Cheeks: Wet N Wild ColorIcon Blush in Mellow Wine

Highlight: Jesse’s Girl Pure Pigment Eye Dust in Pixie Dust

Lashes: Kiss True Volume Natural Plump Lashes in Ritzy and Wet N Wild Mega Length Mascara

Brows: NYX Eyebrow Cake Powder in Taupe

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Can’t name anything that tops a good makeup selfie when it comes to beauty other than being able to take pictures in the sun. I say this because it’s been ugly and rainy these last few days and I really miss being out in the warm weather. I wonder what’s in store for me these next few months; I have a feeling something amazing is coming to fruition this March as Spring tends to do for me. In the meantime, I’m staying busy in the city, trying new places and doing what I love! Blogging.

— Talia

Hopscotch — Outfit, Visuals & Food

Exploring and confirming: I need people! I don’t know what I’d do in a world without people. I love people. I love people around me; I love people around other people; I love people interacting with people. Like, I literally have an appreciation for people because, I can‘t settle for the comfort of social media. My phone fell into the heater next to my bed and before finding it, I realized the importance of physical contacts. I am better in real life than I am online. People are better in real life than they are on the internet. Not because of their actions or even their behavior but because, who can’t respect and appreciate REAL-ness for whatever it is?

— Talia

  H&M  leather jacket,  Poshmark  hoodie,  DKNY  blouse,  Urban Outfitters  jeans,  ASICS  shoes (thrifted from  Goodwill )

H&M leather jacket, Poshmark hoodie, DKNY blouse, Urban Outfitters jeans, ASICS shoes (thrifted from Goodwill)

 Jajaja Plantas Mexicana, NYC 

Jajaja Plantas Mexicana, NYC 

 At Van Leeuwen Artisan Ice Cream

At Van Leeuwen Artisan Ice Cream

 Around the block.

Around the block.

 Off Marcy Ave!

Off Marcy Ave!

 Herbert Von King Park

Herbert Von King Park

 Immunity and turmeric shot from Fuel Juice Bar

Immunity and turmeric shot from Fuel Juice Bar

 Coffee, anyone? 

Coffee, anyone? 

 In the cut. 

In the cut. 

NoStyle Ave

I was boring af, trying so hard to keep my mind off of other people that I got an email from a social media engagement team about doing ambassador work so, I signed up! Not sure what else to do but, I think it’s bringing attention to my page, as well as, I hope it hasn’t gone unnoticed, hash-tagging like I use to. I feel much more official during this process of creativity and activity that I tend to fast on sleep, water and sudden bursts of energy i.e. this outfit entry being one of those “bursts.” I went thrift shopping last weekend and picked out a bunch of things that I impulsively loved at first sight. Fuck the rules. None of the pieces made sense nor do they match anything I already have in my wardrobe but, it brought a kick to my style and now I’m definitely a knockout. Plus I had this idea that I would like to dress nerdy and less dark/gothic cause I really don’t care to try that hard anymore. 

— Talia

 Ralph Lauren blouse

Ralph Lauren blouse

 Nautica pants

Nautica pants

 Confectionary!  

Confectionary!  

 Etsy bracelets

Etsy bracelets

 Van Leeuwen Artisan Ice Cream

Van Leeuwen Artisan Ice Cream

 H&M jacket

H&M jacket

 Converse shoes

Converse shoes

 Forever21 socks

Forever21 socks

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